Possibilities

I don't know if anyone else feels this way, but music totally dictates what kind of mood I am in. Overall I'm a big alternative fan, most of my music is from this genre, or something sort of similar to it. I do branch out with my deep love for folk, punk, bluegrass, and rock, but alternative just really always knows how I want to feel. I go from the folk alternative with banjos and dueling female and male vocalists, to the 3 part melodies in a somber, piano pounding, flat out sad song. I love the sad songs, they're great. The funkcity cd that Kendra made me probably 6 months ago has definitely been played at least once a week since that time. It was originally made because we came back to the United States and didn't want to, and that we came back and didn't know what was going on in the world around us. We were just so happy, but sad, but mad at the same time that we were back and that we hadn't done everything we had wanted to when we were abroad that we were both just flat out depressed. Tears. This cd made me weep...and I loved every second of it. Every now and then you need to be a little emo, and man, do I love those times when you need that feeling. Somber music is just so good! This post is so rambly it's ridiculous, but whatever. I love listening to music and then switching it up and listening to another genre, but then slipping back into that old favorite. It's like wearing your favorite jeans over and over again, but then you buy a new pair and find that they fit you great! Greater than you could have ever imagined! Then one day those new jeans get gross and you need to wash them and wear a different pair, so you go back to the old faves. That's how my music choice goes. I listen to a band or a genre for months, then I get something new, or someone sends me something or tells me to listen to something new and I listen to that until it's a little pathetic, and then I remember that I don't have to listen to the same thing over and over again, so I go back to my true loves.

Also, every now and then you just need to listen to christmas music. Not all the time, but sometimes. There is some notion that it can only be listened to around this time of year and it is so overplayed because the window of opportunity is so small! Listen a little bit all year round that way it never gets annoying, it's just another great genre to listen to!

oh my god, oh you think i'm in control

Again, Walt Whitman, you are my main man. I don't feel complete without reading a bit of 'Leaves of Grass'...I've just been out of it lately. Not necessarily sick, or feeling wierd, just off. I feel like the world, my world, isn't really lining up. UGH.

First semester is coming to a close, which is a bit on the ridiculous side, I can't wrap my head around it. Ryan is moving out, Jesse is moving in, it's a lot to happen. I'm hoping my extreme hard work will pay off. I haven't been the best at staying in touch with the fam this semester, and when I do, I feel like it's a constant challenge (or battle) everytime I try and call home and talk to my parents...mainly my mom. It's one foot in one foot out right now, but it's so hard to balance this line, I hate it. I hate that everytime I try and bring up something new it's just kind of shot down. I don't know, we used to be really close, but now I just feel like we're moving apart. I'm working on fixing that, fixing some grades, fixing some internships, jobs...who knows, i barely have time to pee these days.

21 was real easy, now i'm realizing it kind of blows.