I don't like it

Ugh finals, why do you exist??

I don't think I have ever been more stressed about finals. Usually I have the following at my disposal : movies, good food, a family member to complain/ cry to, oh yea..and a semester's worth of going to class. Here I have the following: spanish pirated copied movies, food i mildly accept, no family, and only 1/3 of the classes that i should've gone to.

Today I will be retaking my grammar test because the first one I only achieved a 55%. Now, I wish I could just take the 55 and run, but of course, with this being our ONLY GRADE FOR THE SEMESTER 90% of everything comes from this 55%...so...I will be retaking this monster of a test again today. Last night I broke down into one of the worst anxiety attacks I've had since high school. I felt horrible for Molly because she felt my unexplainable mood, and..I finally had to look at her and say "i can't actually talk about grammar or anything that has to do with this test right now or i'm going to puke all over you" her laughter made me feel better about myself, but I was being rather serious. I studied from the time that I got this test back on friday until now. If I don't pass this class not only will my GPA go WAY down, but I'll have to make up a 600 level class in spanish and probably not finish my cinema minor. UGHH!!!!!!!!

In other news, my host mom told me the other day that there isn't friendship between men and women, only love. Only different levels of love. Really? It blows my mind when I try to think of it. I can't explain it, but I think she's right.

To Do list:
1. take said gramm test
2. finish geog presentation and present tomorrow
3. start bull fighting paper/presentation
4. read

Procrastination has many names

I'm the worst at doing work or getting work done. I get so determined and go pretty great for a while, but then...I just end up tooling around! I can't stop myself! Ok, case and point. Right now I should be finishing this art project that is due next week, that way I can do other projects that are also do in the upcoming weeks. I am ALMOST DONE this stupid power point (which I don't even have to present), but of course, I cannot complete it knowing that I have a week to pass it in. Terrible. I was hoping that my insane anxiety would kick in and say, "Allyson, you do not want to wait until the last minute, you know what you get like under pressure!" But, as luck would have it, my anxiety has been surprisingly at bay throughout this whole trip (Ry, you'd be proud). Paranoia at an all time low. Caring, unfortunately, is also at an all time low. UGHH. ok. i need to kick it up and do this. I can do it!

haha...all i can think of is that stupid song from Dumbo, and i hate Dumbo
"casey jr.'s comin' down the track, casey jr.'s back, comin' down the tracks!" i think it goes on to the "i can do i can do it..." part

shout out to courty- the power of lurve!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Half of the time we're going, but we don't know where..

SPRING BREAK has come and gone, which also means that my birthday has come and gone! This is a quick run down of events, nothing too detailed, but just a little somethin'!

1. Traveled to Paris on Friday, apr 3, holiest of all holy days.
2. Turned 21 whilst underneath the Eiffel Tower.
3. Had a 7euro Corona that night at a bar Megan knew courtesy of Brett and then a birthday Blow Job shot thanks to Megan,lol! That was my night, I really just wanted to sleep because I hadn't in like 36hours.
4. Woke up and went to the Arc de Triumph and Champs- Elysees and then walked to the Concorde and back
5. Woke up and went to the Louvre and Musee D'Orsay for GRATIS because it was the first sunday of the month and all museums in Paris are freeskis..absolutely amazing
6. Walked around some more, and then took a nap in the park
7. Went back to the Eiffel Tower to go up!
8. Was basically 5years old in the Eiffel Tower, I've never seen anything more beautiful in my life!I can't even describe it!!! Bretch pretended to propose to me, it was perfect,lol!
9. Notre Dame the next day and then the gigantic cemetary with Jim Morrison's grave and Oscar Wilde, also Sarah Bernhardt and Chopin!!(i was interviewed by a german independent radio station asking me why i loved jim morrison...i said music never dies,HAHAHAHA)
10. ROME!
11. Met with Aubrey and Mike Smith after a little roman shopping
12. Trevi Fountain, Spanish Steps and Colesseum=my favorite parts of Rome
13. Vatican City was cool, but not as cool as I thought it would be....I wished Court and Anthony were with me to make fun of churchy things
14. Thoroughly started missing my sister after Aubrey and I hung out so much
15. Met 2 Italian boys named Francesco (who had my birthday) and Simone, they were in the army...they walked us home and invited us to a drink the next day
16. sort of stood up by the italian boys, but not really because they left their numbers and an apology at the front desk of the hostel!!!hahaaahahhaahaa
17. met with Megan's friend and roommate Katie and her friends that she was traveling with and went back to the colesseum!!
18. Took a plane back to Madrid and then a 5 hour bus back to Granada


Best spring break EVER, manos abajo! I loved everything about how the countries were so different! The next language I learn will be french, but then italian definitely! I miss my sistah!